Let me disappear

I have done enough ranting about how much of a fucking burden I am on the people around me, and how I can’t do anything right. Now I just want to run away from human contact. In some quiet place where I don’t get judged and I don’t make a fucking idiot out of myself. Does anyone know how to just leave everything behind and run away?

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How debilitating the anxiety

Can’t do anything. Forcing myself to write this. Hoping I can get the strength. There is too much that needs to be done. Don’t know where to start. The judgment never stops. I feel the burn in the pit of my belly. It doesn’t make you function.

Why can’t I leave it all? No more career, no more family, no more responsibilities. The pain is too much.